My journey with cancer
The day has come to share my adventure. I'll start at the beginning. At the beginning of August, I was diagnosed with stage one cancer, by accident, when I finally decided to go to the doctors to sort out a long-delayed medical condition.
Back in the summer, I decided to take it upon myself to further awaken my femininity and to tackle absolutely everything that I had been putting off and fearing or simply avoiding. I had a lot of strength, and with practice and steady work on myself, I got to the point where I felt I could handle everything. So I experienced the news and the diagnosis in all sorts of ways, the fear of death, the ruined travel plans, the painful healing after the diagnostic procedures, a few days of panic attacks, but at the same time there was always an inner knowing that no matter what, everything was going perfectly, the way it was supposed to be.
After about 4 days of crisis (it only lasted that long because I live in a conscious environment, because I have somewhere to focus my attention and help others, not just think about myself.) After those days, I went into action mode only. Gone are all the fears of doctors, or rather the avoidance, from one examination to another, some doctors are less frightening others very much so that even the paralysis of fear takes over the body, but they don't give much time for that, and then it's back to the action.
I asked myself what I had put off, what I had not said, what I had not done. I needed support and I told everyone, my whole spiritual school and teacher prayed for me every day. The gratitude for this is endless. My family stood behind me like a giant oak.
During the months I waited for the surgery in Lithuania, in between the tests and the waiting, I fasted for 7 days, having prepared myself well, I drank probiotics, I put hemp oil on my belly button, I continued to help others on their spiritual path, I visited some amazing Lithuanian shamans and Lithuanian places of power, I consulted several psychosomaths and let go of several blocks, I helped my mother at home, because I was staying at her place for several months. But I think what has helped me the most is the inner choice to go deeper into myself and the actions that confirm this choice.
I am now out of surgery, I am healing and today I found out that the tests came back positive and I am cancer-free. I felt it the day after the surgery, as years of trauma and disappointments left my body physically. But yes today I got confirmation. So I would love to hear from you if you need any help, advice. I do counselling and courses and retreats at school, because really without good preparation, focus, inner work and support things could have been very different. Love life and don't postpone the path to yourself, it has to become a priority. ❤
